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so how long has it been?? 3 months?? [27 Oct 2005|07:08pm]
[ mood | cant complain ]
[ music | like we never loved at all ~faith hill ]

holy crap sooo yeah i've gone through times where i didnt write for a few weeks but this it more like few months!!! not that anybody really cares or has noticed cuz i'm sure there arent many of you who are sitting on the edge or your seat waiting to hear the latest in my oh so exciting life. but tonight i had nothing better to do then an enlish project i plan on putting off a little more.... so i decided to write in here instead!

sooo lets see... summer. summer was good. it had its ups and downs but all in all it was really good. school is back now which isnt as bad as i thought it would be but i'm missing last year alot for some reason. like the classes, the people in my classes, the people i knew i'd see in the halls everyday, my lunch period, ahhh it was just a good year. this year has been good so far thought. it looks like it could be promising.

homecoming a few weeks ago was awesome!! it was soooo much fun. i spent most of the day down at barb's shop and got all dolled up with the girls. and while i was down there my parents came down with a delivery they had gotten at home for me. my birthday was the next day sooo i figured it was flowers they had sent to me. well i was kinda right cuz they were flowers but not from my parents. i opened them up and saw my favorite flowers, yellow roses, with a big blue bow around them. they were from eddie and his family!!! omg it like made my day. it was soo nice. but anyways, i loved my hair this year ((thanks to erin)). then we went back to jenns to get our dresses on and jenn got her hair redone for the second year in a row. long story... dont ask. then we all walked over to jessi's for pictures. everybody looked soooo pretty!! i took matt this year... my little hottie. lol. he got me a gorgeous bouquet. then me and matt, lisha and josh and jenn all rode with him to homecoming in his cute little red convertaable. everybody says it was a corvet but you know how good i am with identifying cars...lol... soo the facts i know for sure is its a little red convertable. haha. soo we got to homecoming and danced the night away, of course. sooooo much fun!! then the 5 of us riding in matt's car got our sweatshirts and jackets out of matt's car so got all bundled up cuz on the way home we put the top down cuz it stoped raining!!! we blasted the music and just went nuts. it was a good time. then we went back to jessi's for the afterparty kinda thing. it was such a good time!!! i was totally dreading homecoming this year for some reason but it ended up being really good.

oh and so guess who's offically driving...with a permit.... ME!! heck yes. i went down on the 11th..2 days after my birthday and passes the test of common sence... i know its surprising. lol jk. but then i took heather home...yeahh that was an experience. but dont worry... i've gotten alot better. ask heather... she's gotten in the car with me since then and we all lived to tell about it. haha.

soo yeah nothing too exciting has happened since then. driver's ed EVERY monday and wednesday night!! but thank god it's almost over!! although we did have an interesting class on monday. some random kid decided to moon the class and then out a big picute of a penis in the window. it was soooo funny. driver brown wasn't too impressed though. haha, that guy, he's an odd one. lol. soo after class me and jenn went to take the poster down and then she handed it to me to throw away. well i didnt see any garbage cans anywhere around so i ran behind the school, like over near the football field and just threw the poster in the mud. meanwhile jenn and lexi and standing there laughing at me trying to run through all the mud and find somewhere to put the thing. well then as we're walking back inside jenn sees a trash can... SOOOO i go back and peel this thing out of the mud and throw it away. by this time some of the football players had heard what was going on and came too see the large penis picutre before we threw it away. ahhh most eventful night of drivers ed ever. thats sad.

sooo i guess thats pretty much it. i usually do a personal part at the end of these things about boys and how they either a) make life beautiful or b)make life hell. but this time i decided not to cuz i wanna keep the whole 2 of you that actually read this thing, on the edge of your seats. haha no jk. honestly, there is someone... kinda... but i'm not saying much else cuz i dont know exactly whats gonna happen with it or what i'm really feeling for sure.. sooo we'll see. but anyways, i hope you are all doing great.

love ya

Rach

.::At the touch of your hand, at the sound of your voice, at the moment your eyes meet mine. i am out of my mind, i am out of control, fighting feelings i can't define. it's a sin with no name, like a hand in a flame. but it's true all the same, it's a dangerous game::.

innocence

another great week in the making... [04 Aug 2005|01:17pm]
[ mood | kinda bored but alright ]
[ music | living on a prayer ]

once again its been another good week so far! it started being great on sunday when i went to dave's graduation party. matt showed up and i had been telling him that once he got his license we were going out driving. well he got his license a couple weeks ago but he didnt tell me that he had also gotten a new adorable red convertable!! so when he showed up in that car i made sure we went out for a drive. we drove around the neighborhood and got chased by some kid on his dirtbike cuz he said we went on his property. it was just a long driveway and we turned around in it and he flipped. i was freaking out a little bit cuz this guy was really scarey. lol. so yeah we had a good drive and a good talk about a lot of stuff we really needed to get out. then we went back to the party and went swimming for a while. good time!

monday i went to marilyn's and molly, heather, and lauren came over and we all hung out cuz lauren had just gotten back from vacation with molly and was leaving again on tuesday for another 2 weeks!! so we all got together to say goodbye before she left us again. lol. then that night i had to babysit over in hawthorne. i saw ashley! i havent seen her all summer! so i talked to her for a little bit when i took the little girl i was babysitting to the playground.

tuesday i went to the mall with mar, lisha, caitlin, jenn and heather. i actually had money from babysitting so i could actually shop!! ahh it was nice. then we went back to jenns to go swimming. i ended up just staying over that night with caitlin and jenn. we went out at like 11 for a midnight swim kinda thing. it was soo nice! the water was soo warm. it was great. then we went inside to watch a movie and hang out. it was a good time

yesterday i hung out a jenns for the day. we laid for like 3 hours. that was much needed!! lol. i actually got some color!! then her family came over for a picnic. her uncle brian is looking alot better! last time i saw him he was still really week and not feeling too great. but yesterday he was up and moving around more and upbeat. it was good to see him doing better. then caitlin came back over and we watched cruel intentions. good movie!!! then i went home and did nothing. lol.

today i went out to pick up food at wendy's for melanie and surprised her up at band camp with lunch. i missed her! i havent seen her in forever!! but other then that i have done NOTHING today!! its really boring. lol. so i think thats about it right now. i think i'm gonna go find something to do now. hope you're all having a good day!!

love ya
Rachel

.::Something in your eyes makes me wanna lose myself::.

.::But my God its so b e a u t i f u l when the boy smiles::.

innocence

just hanging out... [28 Jul 2005|12:31pm]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | Breathe ]

This has been a great week!! I've seen jenn every day of the week since sunday. haha.

on sunday i got together with jeff, lisha, josh, will, amanda, jordan, and sheryl for a while. always fun. then i went over to jenn's and slept over and caitlin came over too. we watched this movie called the Shaft. it was about this elevator that this guy programmed to run off of human tissue. so it was going out of control and killing people in the elevator. it was really creepy... but good.

monday i hung out at jenn's for the day. her dad sent her mom flowers and the card said "To the person we love the most who we say it to the least". I thought that was soo cute. but yeah so we just hung out. lisha came over and we went swimming for a little bit. then jenn came back to my house and slept over. we decided we were hungry at like 2 am and made chikcen fingers. my mom comes down like half awake and she's like what's burning?! then she saw us and just rolled her eyes and went back to bed. she's hysterical when she's half awake. haha.

tuesday lisha came over and me and her and jenn were just hanging out. then mar called so we had her come down too. then we all went back to jenns and hung out there!! do you see the pattern??? it was a good time though. caitlin was over too of crouse cuz she basically lives there!!! she's sooo funny!! omg.

wednesday...yesterday... i got up and actually did my hair nice! very impressive huh? lol. jenn showed me this really cute way to flip it out and stuff. its soo cute. so then i met mar, lish, jared, jenn, and caitlin at applebee's for jared's birthday. i love that place! soo good. then me and jenn and caitlin and lish came back here to get jenn and caitlin ready to meet these guys we were setting them up to meet. then we left for the mall and caitlin's guy.. jeff.. didnt show up but he called and said he forgot he had a basketball game but he wanted to meet her soon. sooo hopefully we'll get them to meet soon. but jenn's guy...dylan... did show up. and they hit it off. me and lish were kinda proud at our matchmaking skills. haha. so then i came home and went to will's. it was a good time!! there was this HUGE fight outside! i dont even know what all happend but people were screaming at each other and the neighbors were coming out of their houses and i swear there was a punch thrown somewhere. yeahh fun stuff.

today i was gonna go to the wavepool with candice, josh and eric but my mom said i have to help her with stuff around the house. sooo scratch that plan! hopefully i'll be able to do something today...eventually.

comment...

love ya
Rachel

.::I could walk on the beach and watch the sunset and not feel anything. But I could walk on the beach holding your hand and watch the sunset in your embrace and feel everything. I could enjoy it all without you... but it's always better with you::.

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pirate game!! finally! [23 Jul 2005|12:15pm]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | I'd give it all for you ]

guess who FINALLY got to a pirate game this year?!? yes its about time!! last night i went with mell and her family. it was a good time! except for the fact that we lost in extra innings and had EVERY opportunity to win!! ahh it was soo frusterating! but there was some excitment around us. there was a drunk guy in front of us who stood up and started shouting "Sidney Crosby's amazing! doesnt anyone care about the penguins?! they get first pick now!" he went on for like 10 minutes and some lady behind us started yelling at him. the offical "pirate patrol people" ...haha...had to come and ask him to sit down and then he just left. then some lady a few rows behind us started screaming and cussing some guy out cuz he stood up to cheer for a run. well the official people had to come and break that up too which was interesting to watch. then after the game there were the most amazing fireworks!! they were great. after we left and finally got out fo the parking garage, we went to eat'n'park for some ice cream. it was a really good night!! and i finally got to a pirate game this season. lol

well i guess thats about it...

comment please...

love ya,
Rachel

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still a good week! [21 Jul 2005|07:29pm]
[ mood | kinda tired but doing alright ]
[ music | nothing right now ]

things are still going pretty good! its very nice. lol.

yesterday me and my dad drove up to visit my mom. that was fun except we had to get up at like 7 to miss traffic. so i was trying to sleep on the way there but my dad thought it would be a perfect time to give me driving lessons and ask me random questions about driving instead. ahh it made me soo mad. i would be just about to fall asleep and hed hit my leg and be like "ok so what does this sign mean??" i love how he thinks i dont have any idea what i'm doing when it comes to driving or knowing the road. ahh crazy! soo yeahh anyways we went up to see her for a little bit. i filled her in on some stuff going on back here and all that jazz. this week has been so weird without her! i think every meal has been take out or eat out and my dad's hardly home so i've pretty much been on my own. and i must say, i cant complain about that one too much. but it is really different without her right now. so we came back from seeing her and i had a sleepover at marilyn's house. ohhh my, sooo many stories. i got to hang out with all the girls except for the 2 who ditched us for new york. haha. i hadnt seen some of them for a while so it was good for all of us to be together again. they all make me laugh sooo much! it was a great night. some of the conversations were verrryyy interesting. haha.

today we woke up and went to jenn's to go swimming although we didnt end up actually swimming. we hung out and talked and ate and watched some movie bobby wanted us to watch. i think it was called Harold and Kumar's trip to white castle or something like that. it was really funny. and of course bobby already had it memorized so he recited parts of it to us which was even funnier. ohh haha and we were on the phone with jeff and we were trying to hook him up with caitlin and he was demanding i send him a picture of her. and i'm like, "stop yelling at me!" and hes like, "i'm not yelling. i wouldnt yell. i love you." and i'm like, "awe i love you too! haha." and bobby turns around and he screams soo loud, "NOOOOOO!!!." cuz we always joke about how once its legal and i'm in college too me and bobby are gonna get married. soo he was being a protective husband. haha. it was a good time.

well i guess thats all. hope things are good for all of you!!

love ya
Rachel

.::Let me be the one you call. If you jump, I wont let you fall. I'll pick you up and fly away with you into the night. If you need to fall apart, I can mend a broken heart. If you need to crash, then crash and burn you're NOT alone::.

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so far so good [18 Jul 2005|05:54pm]
[ mood | very happy ]
[ music | if you could only see ]

i have been in the best mood in the last couple of days! i really dont know why cuz nothing new or very great has happend i've just been feeling soo much better then usual. its very nice.

lets see... on friday i went to jenn's to hang out for the day. i got there and she was cleaning for some reason so we talked while she cleaned. and then bobby came down and was complaining about being hungry so he made me some chicken fingers and fries... gotta love him. haha. then my dad called and wanted to know if i wanted to go out to dinner before my mom left. so jenn came out with us and we went to olive garden... best restaurant ever! then we went to see war of the worlds again! pretty good movie... i saw a lot of things i missed the first time. then me and jenn went to marilyn's and met up with her and lisha and slept over there. it was a pretty good day.

saturday i hung out at marilyns for most of the day with the girls. then we all went to jordan's for his party. we played release for like 3 hours. omg it was insane. soo much fun. i got to have a really good talk with heather about stuff and i really needed that. it was a crazy night... soo much fun. after the party will came over and ended up sleeping over. he slept on the air mattress in our computer room and i went in to say good night and jumped on the side of the air mattress and he like bounced up so of course i had to do it again. haha. i was sooo tired. everything was funny.

yesterday mel came over and we watched At First Sight. it was such a cute movie! definitely would classify it as a chick flick but its one worth watching for sure. its soo adorable. then we went to walden woods for daves party. i got to see a lot of people from the mission trip which was nice. and somewhere in the middle of the party me and mar and lish left for a little bit to go continue our 'prank war' or whatever you wanna call it. we went out to bobby's car and wrote all over the windows with lip gloss. revenge is sweet... haha. then ended up sleeping over last night and today we met up with molly, lauren, heather, mar and lish at panera for lunch then walked to oldnavy and went shopping for a little bit. another good day!!

so its been good. life is good. i'm just ok with everything right now. and i talked to eddie today after molly prank called him...lol. but yeah we talked and it looks like i'm gonna be spending and extra day at his house in august which gives me something to look forward to! so yeahh its been a good couple of days.

hope you're all doing great too!!
love ya
Rachel

.::I paint a picture of the days gone by. When love went blind and you would make me see::.

.::Ain't it funny how a moment could just change your life...And you don't want to face what's wrong or right. Ain't it strange how fate can play a part...In the story of your heart::.

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just an update [14 Jul 2005|03:27pm]
[ mood | hyper ]
[ music | Beautiful Disaster~Kelly Clarkson ]

Well the first week home has been going pretty good. yesterday i went out with candice to see War of the Worlds. it was a pretty good movie! we both jumped like 20 times through the whole movie. lol. it was fun to hang out with her again! it seemed like it had been forever! but it was fun.

today i went out to primanti bros. with jaime and sheryl for lunch. it was soo nice to talk to them again! our girl talks are soo funny. lol. good good times.

and some other fun news... i talked to justin for a little bit yesterday. i was totally surprised that he IMed me but it was so nice to talk to him again. i cant' explain what it is but that comfort i had with him before was still there when we talked. i'm hoping we can start hanging out again... just as friends... cuz i miss that. yeah i know, i'm a loser. i still care about him and always will even if he could care less. there's just something about him...

yeahh soo i guess thats about all the new stuff going on to talk about. i think i'm going out with jenn tomorrow afternoon so there will probably be some good stories to tell about that one later. haha. and me and josh were talking about getting a group together for the drive-in tomorrow...?? dunno if thats still on but we'll see.

hope you're all having a great summer...!

love ya
Rachel

.::Come up to meet you, tell you I love you, show you how lovely you are::.

innocence

most amazing week of my life!!! [09 Jul 2005|09:47pm]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | Because of you ~Kelly Clarkson ]

i just got home today from camp luther. oh my gosh, every year it gets better!!! some of the greatest people i've ever met are there every year and the memories we make get better every year. it's sooo hard to leave!! being there is like being away from life. you're on the lake and every night you see the most beautiful sunsets ever and then once the sun goes down you can lie on the bluff just staring at the sky completely filled with stars. any craziness going on in life at home disappears for a week. its soo much fun!! and this year i saw my first shooting star ever!!! yes i know that is soo horrible... i'm close to being 16 and i hadnt ever seen a shooting star before. lol. i miss everybody sooooo much!!! eddie, tim, will, daniel, erin, sarah, sarah... some of the most amazing people ever! i met new people too who were alot of fun too. soooo many good times... i dont remember laughing so hard before.
Here's a few of them:
~ 'cant touch this....till later!'
~ Phenelope Bianca and Lola
~ Eddie and tim's 'performance'
~ lying with eddie watching the stars and missing almost every shooting star!
~ "when you lie next to me"
~ anna telling erin she isnt a little sister because she has, and i quote, "big breastis"
~ sarah's secret notes
~ "vanpeed"
~ finally attempting to give eddie a piggyback ride... that was a sight to see
~ getting endless piggyback rides from eddie
~ "when i look to the sky something tells me you're here with me"
~ kellen... everything about him!!
~ cutting sarah's hair and it looked amazing!
~ me and sarah having the exact same dream!!
~ 3 inches
~ monday night, sneaking into the dining hall to get peanut butter and bread then ditching will with the evidence.
~ sarah and erins wedding
~ friday night sleepover and the big spider on my sheets
~ 'on my own'
~ 'on fire'
~ lost cow game
~ OSU boxers that just happened to have eddie's name on them
~ hanging eddie's boxers on the flagpole
~ very random pictures on the bluff
~ the huge M nicely drawn on the driveway
~ my kiss on the bluff... haha
....oh my gosh there are sooo many more but i'm sooo tired... if any of you remember any more comment or tell me or something. i'll probably think of more tonight as i'm trying to fall asleep. so i'll add on later.

comment...

love ya
Rachel

.:: When I look to the sky something tells me you're here with me. And you make everything alright::.

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back home and heading out again! [02 Jul 2005|03:27pm]
[ mood | giddy ]
[ music | Because of you ~Kelly Clarkson ]

i just got home from the mission trip. omg it was amazing!!! sooo much fun!! i could go into lots of detail but it could go on forever sooo i'll tell you about some highlights.
~ walmart visits... snack refills..always a must
~ singing 'I hope you dance' at the talent show in front of like 400 people!!! then having these cute guys come ask for my autograph. it was pretty funny!
~ being serenaded by andy... soo adorable! he sang 'Daughters" by john mayer
~ finally making up with matt
~ endless late night talks with the girls
~ my amazing amazing work crew!!! leah, katy, ben, jeff, and steph... ITS DEADLY!! haha
~ learning how to dry wall... very funny to watch
~ seeing all these look alikes!
~ getting care cards from amazing people who made me feel better about a lot of things
~ my room, all 15 some girls!! soo many good times. what happens in the room stays in the room! haha.
~ my walk with jaime and sheryl after the awesome thursday night program
~ our "bonding" experiences... lol ladies
~ JEFF!!!!! awesome to have in my crew and in the car on the way home and all the drama around his life. lol. ;)
~ our dillusional baseball team
~ tea pot remix... made by your truly!
~ Dustin renamed D-licious by once again, your truly
~ and then of course we have me changing one night in the dark and getting a spotlight turned on me... a little show i guess. lol.
~ sooooooo many more but thats enough for now i guess.

it was such a good time!! i met so many great people who I'm gonna miss alot! i really needed to get away from all the craziness here and get close to my friends and to new people. i finally opened up to some people about problems and hurts i've never been able to talk to many people about. it was such a relief.

i leave again tomorrow for the family vacation to ohio on lake erie (camp luther). i'm excited for that but i'm sooooo tired!! it's gonna be good though. the sucky part is that i have to completely unpack and repack in the next 6 hours or so. i hate packing!!! oh well.

though it might not seem like it, i've missed everybody from home soo much!! so when i get back from camp... we are hanging out!!! i feel like i've been missing everything!! call me this week.. i'll have my cell with me and if i dont answer leave a message and i will deff. call you back!!!!

personal part: totally at ease with things right now. i'm putting life on cruise control now. i go with what happens. some cuties on the trip that i got to meet this past week... that was nice. nothing serious but nice. lol.

comment please....


love ya!
Rachel

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leaving tomorrow!!! [24 Jun 2005|04:49pm]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | the scientist ~Coldplay ]

i'm getting out of here!! finally. so i wasnt really excited about leaving but now i really need the vacation. i leave tomorrow morning, bright and early.. we're talking 8 in the morning early. i'll be back next saturday then i leave again next sunday. gotta love the summer! while i'm gone this week you can and SHOULD send me e-mails!! here's how you do it...

http://www.groupworkcamps.com/2005/EMailCamper/ecrewform.asp?camp=2

1. Go to this website

2. Make sure the camp site says Millersville, Maryland

3. Put Rachel Knarr as campers name and your name in who it's from. (make sure you use both first and last name)

4. Fill out a message. It doesn't need to be brief like it says on the site. Just ignore that.

5. Click sumbit and you're done!!!

can you handle that?? i would love to hear from people while i'm gone. even if you dont miss me, make it seem like you do. thats always nice. lol jk. alright well i hope you all have a great week!!!!

dont forget to email!! hehe

love ya
Rachel

.: To me, you're strange and you're beautiful. You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see. You turn every head but you dont see me:.

innocence

:) [22 Jun 2005|11:57am]
[ mood | no complaints ]
[ music | strange and beautiful~ Aquaung ]

things have been getting a lot better. i'm feeling better and finally enjoying the summer for the most part. the beginning of the week started a little shakey but its all good now.

so how bout sunday was fathers day and i didnt really talk to my dad all day. i was one of the worst moods and everything he said or my mom said just got to me. yeah it wasnt a good day. i felt bad that i felt like i ruined his fathers day but i think we got it all worked out. i called jenn and told her i needed to get out of the house and things were just sucky so i went over to her house and slept over. it was soo much fun. we sayed up until like 4 just talking about everything thats been going on. i needed that so much! at some point during our talks we both decided we were hungry.. well... jenn found pasta in the pantry and she had order out salad from olive garden so at about 2 in the morning we had speghetti and salad. lol. who does that?! lol. it was exactly what i needed though. a good girls night...

then on monday we hung out around her house and by the pool. then we went to her game. it was me jessi and caitlin. we ended up running the concession stand though which was an experience. lol.

today i'm going to rent some movies to take and watch on mar's new big screen TV. then i have to babysit madison... one of the cutest little girls in the world! then i think i'm possibly having a sleepover at carries...?? maybe, we'll see.


and a little look into my personal life... lets just say one of my friends has this talent for match making and he thinks he found something good.. guess time will tell. that doesnt mean that all my feelings for justin are gone but i cant just sit around and wait for him. he's already moved on and i cant just stop everything and wait for him or wish things were different... i couldnt enjoy my summer like that. i still consider him a friend and i dont think either of us wants to lose the friendship but maybe the relationship side of things just isnt in the cards right now...soo yeahh thats the latest update.

so here's this thing i found...its kinda fun...

1. Reply with your name and I'll write something I like about you.
2. ...and what song/movie/icon reminds me of you.
3. ...and if I were to apply an o’clock to you, I’ll tell you what it would be.
4. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
5. I’ll tell you the most memorable moment I’ve had with you.
6. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. ...and I'll tell you something that I’ve always wondered about you.
8. Then you will put this in your journal.

comment..
love ya
Rachel

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longest week of my life [17 Jun 2005|07:28pm]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | True- Ryan Cabrera ]

well after the pretty good entry last time... this one is not as exiting, at all.

kennywood yesterday was really not that great. i tried to have a good time but near the end of the night i got this horrible stomach ache and didnt feel like riding much anymore. people were fighting, i saw people i didnt wanna see for the rest of the summer, and it just wasnt the best day. i slept over at jenns afterwards and that was fun but we all fell asleep pretty fast. today we all hung out at her house which was actually pretty fun to just chill out and not really have to do anything.

oh yeah and as most of you probably know, me and justin broke up. yes its sad but he's happy now so i'm trying to be happy too. i guess i shoulda known it was gonna happen. things felt too right for it to stay that way. there's so much confusion around the situation but there's nothing i can do about that. i still care about him alot even though people keep telling me not to. i see more in him then a lot of people have taken the time to try to see. even if we never actually "date" again i dont wanna lose him from my life as a friend. he helped me see a lot of things and feel better about myself and feel things i havent really felt before, and he might not even realize that but its true. he's a great person and i just hope that he doesnt forget about me and we can still talk and be friends. i just want him to be happy.

yeahh so i'm sure you're all tired of hearing about that so this is the end of this entry. i hope you're all having a better week then me. lol.

comment...

love ya
Rachel

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wow its been a while [11 Jun 2005|12:02pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Daughters- John Mayer ]

i didnt realize how long it had been since i updated this thing. my bad. well school's out!!! the last day did not feel like the last day but its alright. the summer has started pretty good. i went to ohio last weekend to see daneil graduate. that was fun. i got to see eddie for a little while too. which is always a good thing.

thrusday: i went out shopping with mel, mar, and jenn. it was fun to hang out with the girls! we havent hung out for a while so it was a good time. then that night i went to the fashion show for matt kocher with justin and candice and we met up with josh cuz he was announcing. it was really cute. except for ms.walsh weaing a little too tight of an outfit. yeahh that was interesting. then we went out to smokey bones and got some dinner. almost got in a nice accident on the way there...yes thanks josh. lol. it was a really good night. i had been in a weird mood all day but i tried to get over it and have a good time.

friday: went shopping again and then to jenn's to swim for a while. that was fun. then i came home and did absolutely nothing all night except watch the Breakfast Club on ABC family. they kept trying to chane the swear words and make it look like the people werent really swearing and it didnt really work. it frusterated me cuz it looked dumb. you could tell what the people were saying so why not just let them say it?! lol. yes i was bored.

today i'm going to berwick's party and then i think to marilyn's for another party.

have you ever looked into someone's eyes and felt that everything's ok? it's unreal. i love being with justin and when he looks at me or smiles at me it's like everything else goes away. yeahh so that sounds dumb but its just that feeling that i dont wanna lose.

ok comment...

love ya
Rachel

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long weekend :) [27 May 2005|10:41pm]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | memories of us ]

ah do you know how nice it is to know that you have 3 days ahead of you for the weekend instead of 2?!?! ahh i love it! even though this weekend could turn out to be pretty boring. today was great though! the day went pretty smoothly except for mr.hovenec's melt down 3rd period. yeahh that was a sight i never need to see again. lol. mrs. voltz brought us panera bagels for breakfast this morning so that nice. and i got to see justin a few times which of course was great. hehe. yeahh the only thing sucky about today was that people were still talking about me. not many but still, i still hate it. but i also found people who will stick up for me and trust me so that made me feel better. omg and tonight was a lot of fun. me, mar, mel, lauren, molly, and heather went to see Star Wars. it was soooo good but so sad! but hayden christensan was amazing in it. and not bad to look at either. lol. it was a good girls night out! good times ladies!

so tomorrow i have to get up early to go to penn hills to set up for my grandma and grandpa's 50th wedding anniversary surprise party. it might be boring but i'll get to see will and erin and emily so that should be fun. and then sunday is the actual party. and monday sometime i'm getting together with marilyn to watch some movies. it was a birthday promise i made her. lol.

but the only sucky part is that justin is gonna be gone for the weekend at his sister's camp and there's no service there hardly. so i wont get to talk to him much. yeahh its gonna suck. but hopefully he'll have fun while he's gone!

alright well i guess thats about it. comment...

love ya
<> Rachel <>

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chorus banquet [25 May 2005|03:56pm]
[ mood | energetic ]
[ music | to make you feel my love ]

omg last night was the chorus banquet and it was absolutely the best time i've had in soooo long!! i thought it was gonna be kinda boring but it turned out to be sooo great! although when i first got there i didnt think it was gonna be too great cuz candice and josh came up and were like yeah jc's not coming. so i was kinda disappointed but i decided i was gonna try to have a good time anyways. well then i was up getting food and candice came up and said she had a surprise for me. and i had seen josh take my jacket before that and i thought i was just gonna get it back and that was the surprise. lol. well me and lex went to the bathroom and when we walked back into the room there was some guy talking to josh. and i'm like oh he's pretty cute..but i didnt realize who it was. well then i go to sit down at my table and everybody's like rachel turn around. so i turn around and jc's standing there. i dont even remember what i said, i just remember smiling and giving him a huge hug. lol. yeahh and the rest of the night was perfect too. last night made me see alot of things i like about him. i'm hoping he feels something too, like more then just an attraction. so many people came up and were talking to me about it today and said it was soo sweet to watch us. lol. all i know right now is i really like him and it seems like every time we talk or hang out i find something else i like about him. so we'll see what happens with this. ok well i'm sure you're probably all tired of hearing all about that. lol. well i hope all of you that were there had a good time too! i know most of you did!! i'll definitely never forget that night. good times!

and i've been soooo energetic today even though last night i got like 4-5 hours of sleep! i couldnt fall asleep and once i did i kept waking up and ended up getting up at 5:30 am! yes thats a record! lol

comment...

love ya
<> Rachel <>

.: You dont know what you do. Everytime you walk into the room...
I'm afraid to move:.

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meaningless [23 May 2005|04:05pm]
[ mood | lonely ]
[ music | true ]

today was a pretty meaningless day. after the great day i had yesterday today just pretty much sucked. i'm tired and i dont feel good. and on top of that i'm really getting tired of hearing that a few people who are my friends are talking about me behind my back. like every single day at least 3 people come up to me and tell me something that a person said about me. i'm not going into details cuz i'm sure none of you are really that interested in seeing all that but i'm just really getting tired of feeling like crap because people cant mind their own business or have to tell me every single thing i do wrong and who i should or shouldnt like. like i know that i shouldnt care about what people say but its only like 2 people who keep saying things and it makes me feel horrible about myself. i just really cant take it anymore. sorry for kinda venting, i just had to get it out somehow. and thats kinda what this thing's for right? lol. well hope all of you are having a good day!

love ya
<> rachel <>

.:Im just scared to know the ending...Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?:.

innocence

good weekend... [22 May 2005|05:05pm]
[ mood | very happy ]
[ music | if thats what heaven's made of ]

it was a pretty good weekend. friday night i went to promanade with jenn and caitlin and then we went out to olive garden. love that place! then jenn slept over and we got up at like 6 and had to get ready to be at the school at 7!!! the ensemble was competeing at six flags and we had to leave at 7. yeahh that sucked. but they did a pretty good job and we had a good time. omg i love x-flight!! i had been on it before but i forgot how much fun it was. lol. yeah and some kid came up to me and was like tag you're it! and i just looked at him and kept walking. then he comes up later and asked for a quarted but wouldnt tell me what it was for. he just looked at me and did this stupid puppy dog face. he was like 15 at least and he was so dumb! yeahh so that was interesting.

today i went to church and then went to matt kocher's speghetti dinner. then me, candice, jc, and josh went to the movies and saw Monster-In-Law. good times! the movie was kinda predictable and it was alright but i had a good time with the 3 of them so it was worth it. lol. josh kept laughing at other people's laughs and i thought one of them was gonna come up to us afterwards and say something about it. but we got lucky. lol. ah good times guys. we'll have to do it again soon!

yeah so tonight i'm going to the high school for baccalereaute with candice. i'm hoping its not too long... like i wanna go see all the seniors and hang out with josh, jc, and candice but i dont wanna have to sit in those chairs for too long. lol. it'll be alright though.
guess thats it for now. leave some comments...

love ya
<> Rachel <>

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so bored i'm doing another survey! [19 May 2005|08:15pm]
[ mood | giddy...hehe ]
[ music | you and i both loved ]

Name: rachel

Birthdate: october 9, 1989

Birthplace: pennsylvania

Current Location: my house

Eye Color: blue

Hair Color: dirty strawberry blonde

Height: 5'3" ish

Piercings: just the ears

Tatoos: nope

Boyfriends/Girlfriend: nope...single as of right now

Overused Phrase: for sure

FAVORITES

Food: caesar salads, sour cream and onion chips, chocolate

Candy: mr. goodbars

Number: 7, 21, 88

Color: yellow

Animal: cats or yorkies

Drink: iced tea

Alcohol Drink: not for me

Bagel: regular

Letter: probably r

Body Part On Opposite Sex: eyes

THIS OR THAT

Pepsi or Coke: pepsi

Mcdonalds or BurgerKing: burger king

Strawberry or Watermelon: neither

Hot Tea or Iced Tea: either one

Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate

Hot Chocolate or Coffee: hot chocolate

Kiss or Hug: well could i have both??

Dog or Cat: either one

Rap or Punk: uhh none but if i had to choose punk

Summer or Winter: summer

Scare Movies or Funny Movies: both...i love them all

Love or Money: love anyday!!

YOUR...

Bedtime: usually like 11 or so

Most Missed Memory: knowing someone's thinking about me..

Best Physical Feature: umm i dont have one

First Thought Waking Up: i dont wanna move

Goal For This Year: to meet alot of new awesome people... already done ;)

Best Friends: waaaayyy tooo many!

Weakness: never wanting to make people mad... i guess thats kinda a weakness..??

Fears: death, spiders

Heritage: umm dont know

Longest Relationship: 1 year and a month

HAVE YOU...

Ever Drank: no

Ever Smoked: no

Pot: no

Ever Been Drunk: no

Ever Been Beaten Up: no

Ever Beaten Someone Up: yeahh thats me! lol

Ever Shoplifted: nope

Ever Skinny Dipped: not completely

Ever Kissed Opposite Sex: yup

Been Dumped Lately: not officially

IN A GUY/GIRL

Favorite Eye Color: brown or blue

Favorite Hair Color: i like brown hair or dirty blondish

Short or Long: i like it when its kinda longer and curly.. but not too long..if that makes sence..?

Height: taller than me.. but thats not hard to do

Style: kinda the preppy style

Looks or Personality: personality

Hot or Cute: either one works for me!

Drugs and Alcohol: they better not

Muscular or Really Skinny: not so muscular that its like body bulider but not really skinny either... once again, does that make sence?

RANDOMS

Number of Regrets in the Past: oh gosh i dont know

What Country do You Want to Visit: france or italy

How do You Want to Die: in my sleep peacefully

Been to the Mall Lately: yup, last ngiht with jenn

Do You Like Thunderstorms: I LOVE THEM!!!

Get Along with Your Parents: usually

Health Freak: not so much

Do You Think your Attractive: not so much

Believe in Yourself: yeah most of the time

Want to Go to College: heck yes

Do You Smoke: nope

Do You Drink: no

Shower Daily: yes

Been in Love: umm i dont know if i would call it that

Do You Sing: yes

Want to Get Married: heck yeah

Do You Want Children: yep

Have Your Future Kids Names Planned Out: i like the name mackenzie, madison, and cameron for girls and luke and landon for boys

Age You Wanna Lose Your Virginity: the wedding night

Hate Anyone: well i strongly dislike people...

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still waiting for an answer [15 May 2005|03:42pm]
[ mood | "patiently" waiting an answer ]
[ music | I'll Be ]

so last night i talked to josh and he is going to the pirate game with candice and jc on tuesday night. and they want me to go. well i asked my mom and she seemed to be leaning towards it but i really dont know what she's gonna say about it so i'm waiting and trying to be patient. lol

today was a really good day. i went to church and then went out to lunch with erin and kelley to panera. kelley was trying to have a serious conversation with us and spilled water all down her shirt. yes thats kelley! lol. then we decided it was too early to go home so we went over to the new old navy... its soo cute! i didnt even try anything on cuz i knew i'd probably end up wanting it and i'm broke so it wasnt a good idea. then kelley had to run over to walmart to get these light up flip flops. i hate that store. i dont know why but it just creeps me out... there were some shady people walking around. well we stopped at the umbrella section and kinda got in trouble cuz we kept opening them all to look at them. lol ohh well. yeahh good times. well now i have to finish looking at these notes from cliffnotes.com for this stupid book we have to read for english. yeah i think i only read the first chapter the rest have been glanced through or cliffnoted. yes thats right.

well have a great end of the weekend!
love ya
<> Rachel <>

innocence

you know you're bored when... [14 May 2005|10:17pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | love can rock you ]

you know you're bored when you make two updates in like 6 hours. lol. so i had to go up to church tonight with my dad and my mom had stuff she had to do so i made sure my dad knew he needed to remember to take me home afterwards. well church is done and i'm looking for him... yeah he's nowhere around. so i go outside to look and see if our car is still there... no its not. so i turn to go back inside and they had locked the door from the inside so i cant get back in!!! so i'm like stranded at the church. so i called my mom and she's on her way home but luckily this one lady offered to give me a ride home. so i got home but i didnt get to go to the chorus thing. which i was planning on going to. so i came home and watched this stupid movie on ABC family. lol. ah what a night. just thought i'd share the crazy..not so fun night i had. lol

><> Rachel <>

innocence

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